I want to write... but I'm not sure what to say.
This is just a tough few weeks.
Would you pray for me and my family?
They say that anticipation is so much worse than the actual event... and I know the day will come and go...
I just can't believe it's almost here.
I wish I knew what to do... what to think... what to feel.
It's just hard.
I feel numb again...
My heart hurts.
I know that He wants to take away this burden.
I know that He offers unspeakable peace
I know that He will give us the grace and strength for each day.
I wish I knew why I hold back
It's just so hard.
Pray that I will let go.. and let God.
Pray that we can figure out a special way to spend the day. To honor and remember Brayden. Pray that I can begin to see how God wants to use this whole situation.. for the good. To use me, and this road we've been down to touch the lives of others.
There MUST be something more...
I know that we
Right now it just feels like I'm trudging through the mud.
Just missing my boy...
and asking for prayer.