Saturday, June 6, 2009

One Year

One Year ago my world shattered
One Year ago my heart was broken
One Year ago my hopes and dreams were interupted
One Year ago I began the hardest journey of my life
One Year ago time stood still
One Year ago I didn't think I would survive another day
One Year ago I had to let go of one of the greatest gifts ever given to me
One Year ago I was reminded how fragile life is... enjoy every moment!
One Year ago my life was forever changed

It's hard to put into words... I can't even wrap my head around the thought... How has it been One Year...
Yet were still here... surviving. Making it through this journey, a moment at a time.

My heart hurts. How I miss my baby boy so badly. It's so unfair to think of life moving on... but it still does.

Brayden,
The words are so hard to find. My heart is so full of emotion. I love you so much baby boy. We miss you more and more each day. I can't believe it has been a year since I held you in my arms, kissed your sweet head, and felt your incredible hugs. My arms still ache for you. You touched my life in so many ways and left an incredible mark for all eternity. Today, as we remember this day, Your special "Angel Day" may we honor your life and keep your memories alive. I can't wait to share you with your little sister and your bubby. The stories we have to tell! I am forever grateful for every moment we shared... and blessed that I was chosen to be your mommy!

Love you so much sweet Brayden, your in our hearts forever. Can't wait till the day when I will hold you again...
Love you (up to the mooon and down again .. and all around the world... and that's not all!)
Mommy

4 comments:

Grandma~rella said...

Truly beautiful...may peace, comfort and love be with you on this day...and always. (((HUGS)))
Your Blogger Friend,
G'Ma~rella in Oregon :***(

Melyssa Lopez said...

Michelle, I couldn't read every thing you wrote because I busted up crying twice. You are so strong and may God continue to comfort your family.

Pastor Noah said...

Well, Tricia and I just read this and spent some time crying and praying for you. Still crying as I post this. Oh how we hurt with you but my how we rejoice that we know the great God that welcomed Brayden into the home that we will all soon gather at. Heaven. We wish that we could be present we could be present with you today as we were one year ago. See you next month. Noah & Tricia

mommy of four! said...

michelle, wish i could do more to help you. but right now JEsus MUST be your strength and joy. i pray that as this day comes to an end, you will remember, the fun memories that you had, the memories of feelin ghis first kick, hearing his first cry. WE just don't understand why God does the things he does, but we must trust that he alone knows what he is doing. one day we will see the whole picture/puzzle and each piece will fit together and on that glorious day when we see Jesus face to face then and only then will we truly understand this lifes trials. love you