Friday, October 16, 2009

Remembering our Babies...

Today is...

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

I'm not sure if I feel that I belong in this category or not. It is a difficult thing that I struggle with. I hate the fact that I can empathize with many other Mothers who can also say, "I have lost a child". I have not lost an infant. I have been pregnant 3 times. I have 3 beautiful children. I am also so blessed to say that I have never had a miscarriage. When you see my family, there are only 4 of us. In June of 2008 our precious Brayden went home to the arms of Jesus at 17 months old.
Since loosing Brayden, it has been amazing how many people I meet or hear about everyday who also know this pain. Who have lost babies too soon or never had the joy of holding the precious ones being knit together in the womb. It's a journey noone should have to walk. It's a heartache noone wants to feel. It's hard. It hurts.
But God Heals. His peace passes all understanding, and He truly is there to carry you through. I am so thankful for the family and friends that we have to surround us, encourage us, and lift us up in prayer. I know it is the Grace and Mercy of my God, my comforter, who has helped us make it through the dark days.
Today, I want to take time to remember all the angel babies, who await us in Heaven. I know that one day we will celebrate with them in that beautiful place. I am thankful for the hope that gives me to know I will hold my baby boy again.
A Mother's Heart is a special thing. Whether it was for a few days, weeks or even years that you have called yourself a Mother; know that you are special. God has called us to an amazing place to be called Mothers. He holds us in the midst of our pain and knows what is like to loose a child.
I have 2 children here with me to love on and raise here on earth but cannot wait until the day that I am reconnected with my beautiful Brayden. That will be an amazing day. I am blessed with so many things and filled with Hope for the future that I know my creater holds for us. I believe in the scripture that states, "ALL things work together for the good of those who Love Him and are called according to His purpose." and, "He who began a good work in US, will bring it to completion..." I know that God will use us to touch the lives of others and help bless others in the midst of our hurting. I want to bring Him glory and allow Him to make beauty of these ashes.
To all those who have experienced pain and loss. I pray God's peace that passes all understanding. I pray for comfort and for strength to face each day.
We Remember them.


Brayden Russell
Jan. 5,2007 - June 6, 2008

3 comments:

Michelle (She Looketh Well) said...

Michelle, Oh my goodness, I am so glad you linked up because I want to continually pray for you and your family. We too have a pool (and pond) and this is certainly one of worst fears! Your courage to tell your story through such raw emotions touched me. I don't really know what to say, but that I am and will pray for you!

May the God of all hope fill you with joy as you trust in Him, even through this, the darkest of times. May He comfort you like only your Heavenly Father can. May He reach down into the very depths of yours and your husband's hearts and heal you completely. May He protect your blessed marriage, bind you together in unity, provide for you every need. Father, have mercy on this precious family, shower them with your wonderful mercy!

My heart aches with you, I remember with you and I praise God with you in His promise to 'work all things together for the good of those who love Him' He will carry you, even when you can't hang on anymore, He is hanging on to you!!!

Dear sister, thanks you and blessings to you!

jmberrygirl said...

In memory. Thanks for sharing. Praying for comfort in this time of sorrow... and for the rest of your life. As you remember him and long to see him agian, heaven is made sweeter for you.

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

Thank you for sharing your story. What a beautiful child he is.

You have walked a path that most of dread. You have done it and your faith is in tact.

The Lord bless you as you continue to grieve such a great loss.

Stacie