Tuesday, September 8, 2009

An Invasion of Dragonflies...

Today was the first day back to work after a 3 day weekend. It was hard to wake up this morning. It was tough getting motivated for anything. Suprisingly, I got up and made it in good time... I had to be at a meeting after work so I had to figure out the kids and work out little details. The morning went by fairly quickly but I still felt off and a bit frazzled. I rushed over to my mom's to drop off the pickup sign for car rider line and then rushed off to my second school. Of course, my luck on a day like this... I get pulled over. Joy.
I pulled up to school, very late and even more frustrated and frazzled than before. The class was already out at the playground so I put my things down and met them outside. While we were out there a swarm of dragonflies was overhead right where we were standing. It was really wild. Another assistant from the class made the comment about the invasion of the dragonflies...
Me? .. I just smiled. As I looked up to the sky to see all those dragonflies, I felt some sort of relief. Things were going to be alright. I just needed to take a deep breath and take a step at a time. That was just the sign I needed today... a sign from my baby boy. Wish I would have been able to take a picture. I felt a calm and as if I was surrounded by Brayden... It's hard to put into words. I just wanted to say... nope, they're just there for me... It's my Brayden, letting me know things will be fine! (: As we were about to walk back inside I looked up again to see all but one out of sight and the other about to fly away... again I smiled. And then blew a kiss to heaven, thankful for that special moment, another sign, and thankful for the Invasion of Dragonflies. Today was the first day back to work after a 3 day weekend. It was hard to wake up this morning. It was tough getting motivated for anything. Suprisingly, I got up and made it in good time... I had to be at a meeting after work so I had to figure out the kids and work out little details. The morning went by fairly quickly but I still felt off and a bit frazzled. I rushed over to my mom's to drop off the pickup sign for car rider line and then rushed off to my second school. Of course, my luck on a day like this... I get pulled over. Joy.

I pulled up to school, very late and even more frustrated and frazzled than before. The class was already out at the playground so I put my things down and met them outside. While we were out there a swarm of dragonflies was overhead right where we were standing. It was really wild. Another assistant from the class made the comment about the invasion of the dragonflies...
Me? .. I just smiled. As I looked up to the sky to see all those dragonflies, I felt some sort of relief. Things were going to be alright. I just needed to take a deep breath and take a step at a time. That was just the sign I needed today... a sign from my baby boy. Wish I would have been able to take a picture. I felt a calm and as if I was surrounded by Brayden... It's hard to put into words. I just wanted to say... nope, they're just there for me... It's my Brayden, letting me know things will be fine! (: As we were about to walk back inside I looked up again to see all but one out of sight and the other about to fly away... again I smiled. And then blew a kiss to heaven, thankful for that special moment, another sign, and thankful for the Invasion of Dragonflies.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I came across your blog several months ago and come back often to check on you. My heart ached after I read how you lost your little boy. It touched me deeply because I have a little boy who is 13 months old and he is my heartbeat. I went to a 1 day womens conference about a month ago where I live and a lady that spoke is the wife of a local radio show host. They are a pretty popular pair Rick and Bubba. I'm a huge fan of their show and I've met them on several occasions and I thought how exciting it would be to hear their wives speak. The significance of her and your blog post that I read is that this past January was a year ago that they too lost their 2 1/2 yr old boy to a drowning accident. The day I heard her speak she was telling a story about a day she went to visit Bronner's grave. She noticed Dragoflies kept flying around her and they would catch her eye because of the bright baby blue on them and she it reminded her of her son. She said everywhere she went she saw these dragonflies. She said she went to the internet to find out the significance of the dragonfly and during her researh she started reading that dragonflies start their lives in water that's where their eggs hatch. She tied that into relation knowing that the day Bronner fell into that pool that his life was not ending but that his life was just beginning because he was going to be with his heavenly father. Nothing has stuck with me so much as that story and as she was telling that story I thought about you. I know that I don't know you and I only know your from your blog. I pray and think of your family often and only hope that the pain gets easier but that doesn't mean that you will never forget little Brayde. He is adorable!

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