Sunday, July 5, 2009


Recently, we were asked some challenging questions. There is an incredible opportunity that came our way and I was blessed and honored at the mere thought. Things are still in the works and we will see what the outcome will bring. Whether anything comes from it or not I have been filled with thoughts that I wanted to write out...
What do we feel we are holding back from because of what we have experienced? What things do we wish we could do, but feel unable to accomplish? What are our goals, plans, dreams for the future?
It has really make me think. alot. Life has completely changed in the last year. Everything we do is different. I am more apprehensive, yet cherish the moments more. I am very protective, yet love my children better. I get nervous easily, yet allow the frustrating moments to just pass by. My life is forever changed.
There are so many things I hope to improve. So many things I want to change and feel better. I want to stop holding back and continue living life to the fullest. Living the life that Christ would have us to live. After much thought I have come up with 3 specific things, 3 goals that I would have for our lives. 3 things that I want and need to see come from all that has happened.

1. I want our family to swim again
swimming has ALWAYS been one of my favorite things! I was born at the beach, took lessons and was on swim team through my teens, used it as my preferred cardio exercise, and always loved to swim. I want my children to also know the joy in swimming.
2. I want my children to have swim lessons. The fear that comes from thinking about swimming again has alot to do with the fact that one of them may have the same fate... they would not be prepared, not knowing how to swim. I want so badly for them to learn through lessons so that they as well as us will have confidence in the water. It just seems like such a hard thing to do still...
3. Starting whatever it is we are to do to help others through all this. Whether it be through advocasy, support group, awareness, etc... I know that something big will come of all this... I believe our lives can and will impact the lives of others... and I look forward to the day when we can see what that looks like. In the midst of such pain, I desire to reach out... if only we knew the direction, ... and had the strength...

Phil 4:13, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Nothing is impossible with God. I know that live will get better... healing will come, pain will be bearable, and lives will be changed. I am so thankful for the love, support and prayers that are contuing to be sent for us. We still need all we can get. I am also blessed to have a Heavenly Father who loves us so much... who gives us His joy and strength to make it through each day. My prayer is to get to the point where He is glorified in all of this. I want to be used as he would want to use us and to reach out to bless others.
It takes time... It takes action... It takes prayer.. It takes strength.
But ALL things are possible.


Melina said...

Continued hugs and prayers for you. I can only imagine how you feel towards water/swimming now. I know my own feelings are even altered since learning of Brayden. Luckily, my husband's family has always been big into water safety and he, his mom, and his sister have all been lifeguards for a while. We've been doing lessons and water safety for our twins since they were born! If you have any questions, feel free to ask! I know there are fences and child-proofing items availables for pools now, I can share those links if you like. I believe they are expensive though, but worth every penny I think!

Melina said...

oh, and I have pictures of our recent "lesson" on my Crunchy Mama blog. It can give you an idea of where we are lesson wise and what we focus on.

Beth.. One Blessed Nana said...

I will be praying for you as you endeavor on new territory that may be scary or unsettling.

Many hugs and blessings